I am not back, not really. I just needed to post today. I figured I would, if nothing else, update everyone on what is going on in our lives and what is going to be happening soon. It has been a while since I have felt like blogging. A lot has been happening though. Most of the time I have been way too busy to even think of the computer.
September came and went. My husband was scheduled for pre-trial, but they didn't bother to transport him from prison ... so that had to be rescheduled. He will be in court next week instead. His parole has been officially revoked so he is in prison. He has also been writing me and sending me messages. I recently wrote him back telling him to quit writing me. I honestly don't know why he would think I wanted to hear anything he had to say, but oh well.
He has done everything he can possibly do to slow down our divorce. It should have been final around the middle of September. Thankfully, it will be final before the end of this year. I think it is really messed up though that he would try to force me to remain married to him considering what he did. Luckily for me ... he can't force me to remain married to him. All he can do is slow up the divorce and he accomplished that. Not for much longer though.
Things haven't been going that well around here. My car blew a head gasket and I sold it for scrap. Thanks to my brother, I have a car to drive momentarily. He is letting me borrow one of his for a little bit. Trying to get up the money for another one though has been hard. In the last couple of months I have had to learn to live on just one income again, plus pay off all the debt my husband left us with. It hasn't been easy at all.
And, to top off everything ... my brother called me on the 22nd to let me know that Lady died on the 20th. She was hit by a car and it appears she died instantly. He couldn't bear to tell me and it took him two days to call. I am just beyond tore up about it too. I sent her out in the country because I couldn't keep her here and I knew that she would love being able to run and hunt without the dog catcher coming to hunt her down. I know she loved it out there ... I just wish she would have been a bit more careful.
I have a feeling that I will be cutting off my internet access here soon. That and my cable. I need to free up some money. I have to get me and the girls a dependable car and get up some money for them for Christmas. Winter is just around the corner and we can't go without a car. At this point, two of the girls need winter coats and I am scrounging for that. It seems everything costs a fortune and what doesn't is slowly rising in cost. Some days I just don't know how we are going to do this.
It is so hard to get us back to a normal place after what all has happened. Life just keeps moving on, you know. We have church and a few real friends, but not a lot of real support. I am used to that though. I have always had to be strong and stand tall ... find a way to get it all done. I don't know what I would do without my brother. For real. We wouldn't even have transportation if it wasn't for him right now. I just keep praying to God that He will show me the way to handle it all and get us back where we need to be emotionally and financially. We just need to make it over the hump.
Anywho ... there you have it. If you have email for me, you might want to send it to therogueangel at yahoo dot com. I can't guarantee that any other email will be working much longer, other than my gmail ones. Thanks to one of the coolest women ever ... my site will remain up even if I ain't around. She takes good care of me. :)
