I know I am not going to be posting much this weekend, and probably won't until tomorrow night ... if I even do then. Tomorrow is the one year anniversary of my Daddy's death and I am trying to keep myself busy ... as it is still just too hard for me.
Yesterday, I had a cookout and had a bunch of friends over for BBQ, pasta salad, chips, and baked beans. We had a good time and it took my mind off Daddy for a bit ... even if I was doing the kind of thing he loved. He loved a good BBQ and get-together.
But, I had a real good time and my friend, V, kept me laughing. She is so funny! She has such a hilarious sense of humor. Nikko, my grown nephew, was cutting up and keeping us entertained as well. Jeremy and his lady were here earlier and ended up crashing on the couch before the thought of sleep had even entered anyone else's minds ... but I had a real good time with them as well. His girlfriend has the cutest little girl, which my girls loved keeping entertained. Poor Jasper wasn't too keen on her though, as she kept pulling his tail. LOL
Today, I have spent the morning calling family to let them know that we are coming down to visit Daddy's grave and see as much family as we can fit in as well. I got to talk to my Aunt Wanda for awhile, which made me feel pretty good as I have missed her a lot ... but I still ended up crying once we started talking about Daddy.
I have a ton of house cleaning to do today and will probably chill most of the evening, going to bed at a more decent hour, so we can get an early start tomorrow morning. This will be my first trip to my Daddy's grave since his funeral. I am already quite emotional, so I know tomorrow is going to be hard on me.
But, it is time for me to see Daddy and go back home. As much as I have dreaded this day coming, I know it is time. I just wish Daddy were still here with us.
I'm sorry for your loss.. Here's a {{{hug}}} for you for tomorrow and every day...
I know how you feel. I lost my Daddy when I was 16, so it's been 34 years for me last month. I won't say it gets easier, but you'll carry the love he gave you forever and ever, and just having that helps. My thoughts will be with you.
I can't even imagine how tough it is to lose a parent, but I've lost some friends, and I know that sometimes it feels like we're constantly tripping over the grief. It doesn't go away, like Becky said, but you'll keep the memories close to your heart, and he'll always be with you.
And I'm here if you need me, k? You're welcome to call anytime you want to. *hugs*
{{{hugs}}}
I'm so sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
Thanks, everybody :) I will probably post on the trip here in a little while. It was bittersweet in many ways ... with tears, laughter, and some bad news.