December 2003 Archives

It is New Year's Eve today. What big plans do I have?

Well, let's see ... I am staying home. :) And, I am babysitting my sister's four kids so she and her hubby can go out with friends. But, that is okay with me as I never go out on New Year's Eve. I haven't for 12 years. I like to stay home, eat good food, and watch the festivities on the tube. My kids love it that they get to stay up until midnight as well.

Since I was little I always heard that how you spend this night guarantees what you will have all year long. Now, I know that is just a superstition, but oh well. If it is true, I guarantee myself time with family and good food all year. :)

I was recently asked why I do not blog about politics and such. Well, that is really easy to answer. I blog about what I am thinking about. My blog is my diary ... just one that anyone else can read if they so choose. It is for my personal thoughts and experiences. If someone wants to read it, then that is cool. If they don't, that is cool to. I am not writing for an audience, like some people do. I am writing for me.

So, when politics are on my mind ... I will write my thoughts on the subject. I don't think about politics much though. George W. Bush is a weenie. The surplus we had with Clinton is gone and he has ruined our country. The war on Iraq is an unjust war and, in my opinion, a waste of money. It was nothing more than a smoke screen to take our minds off of Osama whom has never been captured. Big deal that we have Saddam ... he did not fly an airplane into the towers. No weapons of mass destruction have been found and we knew about his death camps for years, upon years, and never did anything about them until Bush had to do ue them to take our minds off those weapons of mass destruction that he never had proof of and lied to us about.

Now you have my thoughts on politics.

The rest of the time, you get whatever is currently on my mind.

I woke up this morning after having some really weird dreams. I don't know what the correlation between pregnancy and dreaming is, but it results in some bizarre dreams. This time I was traveling with my ex-husband to see my grandpa in prison. My grandpa died when I was a baby and never was in prison.

I woke up feeling like I haven't slept at all. Which totally sucks as I have a ton of stuff to do today. I think I am starting to get depressed ... as I just feel totally down. It does not help that I had a really bad time over Christmas. It was the first Christmas without my Daddy. It just didn't seem like Christmas without him.

Today has been a tiring day to say the least.

I went shopping. I bought the kids new bedroom suits; matching bunkbeds and chests. They are made of the prettiest wood, with drawers under the lower bunks and bookcase headboards. Really nice. They will not be here until January 6th, but that is okay. They know they are coming.

I also went Xmas shopping. I got the girls a Playstation 2 and got them The Sims: Bustin' Out. Now they can leave my computer alone :) I also bought various other presents. And, I got the whole family a new TV for the living room and a DVD/VCR combo.

I am seriously beat!

This mornings pregnancy dream monster visit was really weird. I was a blonde who had almost been attacked by a shark and I was involved with the man that played Gomez on the Addams Family ... but he was younger and had long hair. He had just had surgery too. We were on the run from something, but I don't remember what it was.

In one part of the dream I was in a wet suit and was in the water. Funny thing is, I woke up in a wet spot. It seems my lovely cat, Jasper, decided to jump on the waterbed and put a hole in it. LOL! Hence, the wet spot.

My sister came to drop off her daughter for two days and we went to see my middle daughter in a Christmas play at church ... which was wonderful. The three wise men were missing, but it was cute regardless.

We came home and watched Adam Sandler's, Eight Crazy Nights, which was funny and weird. That man has a silly sense of humor, which is probably one of the reasons I am a fan. I tend to be pretty goofy myself ... so I like his movies. We also rented Bringing Down The House ... which was pretty good, in my opinion, even though the reviews stunk. I never care much for reviews anyway as they are rarely on target.

I made the kids some homemade chocolate chip cookies today and my oldest and I spent most of the day by ourselves. That was really nice and we both enjoyed it.

I decided not to get the mini van that I was considering buying. My brother-n-law gave me the heads up on the model and I have no interest in getting another piece of crap vehicle. I already have one, thank you. So, I will wait until March or April when my inheritance arrives to buy something nice. I don't have to have one right yet anyway. As long as I get it before the baby is born than I will be good to go.

My brother called tonight to tell me that his family will not be coming for Christmas dinner this year because he is going to his in-laws house. This totally hurts my feelings, as this has been planned since Thanksgiving, and no one has mentioned that they have other plans until now. So, I am a bit upset about this. Especially since I was just talking about this the other day to his wife and she didn't mention anything. This so totally blows!

Once again, the pregnancy dream demon came to visit me in the morning hours. This time, I honestly do not remember the dream ... but I remember images from it. Like two different cats that lost a leg during some kind of earthquake. I remember images of the building I was in shaking something fierce and one of the cats being in the elevator with me. I also remember this weird part where I am in a room and it begins to shake and then all of a sudden these plants are there ... and they are alive. The more you water them, the more they grow ... and I know they were not going to grow into something good.

Extremely strange!

I was going to go to Fulton today but realized I couldn't. My middle daughter has church, then a Xmas party, and then a play tonight. So, it looks like we will be going Monday. That is cool as it gives me today to finish the major house cleaning I have been working on. Though, my oldest is wanting me to go and pick up V's youngest boy to spend the night with us. The girls adore him and mainly want to go to V's to see him. I may do that.

I got this from Donna. :)

Find Your Warped Personality
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I went to the OB/GYN today and was told that the baby is the right size, heart beat is good, and all my innards look good. I have no venereal diseases and I am HIV negative. My thyroid is good and so is my iron levels.

So all is good in the world of baby.

Though I still have to wait on results of my glucose test, but I should know something soon.

My oldest daughter let me read a speech today that she wrote about the death of her papaw; my daddy. It tore me up to relive his death through her experience of it. Sometimes we get so wrapped up in what is occurring in our own lives that we forget that those around us are experiencing the same things as well. I never realized how scary it all was for her.

The death of my father was devastating for me. I literally thought I was going to lose my mind having to watch him on all those machines, knowing they were breathing for him and that he would never breathe on his own again. Knowing the man I adored was never going to be the same man again ... was beyond hard. Even now I bawl just thinking of him. Images of my childhood which used to bring a smile to my face, now just bring tears to my eyes.

I loved my Daddy more than anyone else on this planet. And, I still call him that. I never progressed to calling him "dad" or "father." He was my daddy. And even at the age of 31, the age I was when he died, I still felt like a little girl when I was anywhere near him.

We made homemade pizza which was the bomb! We also rented movies. This time it was Bad Boys II, Anger Management, Charlie's Angels II, and the new Land Before Time X: The Great Longneck Migration. All of which were really good. I especially enjoyed Anger Management as I am a huge Adam Sandler fan and I love Jack Nicholson.

I have an OB/GYN appointment tomorrow, but I think I am going to reschedule it. I have had my nieces here all day and they are spending the night ... and my house is showing signs of the onslaught of teenage girls. :) I think some cleaning is in order, instead.

Night all ...

I had an ultrasound yesterday and got to see the baby :) It is so little and barely recognizable on ultrasound, other than it's tiny beating heart. I wish I had a scanner as I would add it to the photos section. I am 7 weeks and 6 days. I feel like I am five months pregnant though. My midwife says that is because I have already had three children and the more you have, the more you feel and sooner.

Today though, I am depressed. I just do not feel good. I think it is the weather. It is dreary outside. No sun to look at. It is cold with freezing rain drizzling down all over the place. I hate weather like this and I don't feel like doing anything as a result of it.

I did do some housecleaning ... dusting, dishes, and sweeping. I just cannot bring myself to mop though. Maybe if I am lucky, LM will do it for me. LM and the two youngest girls went to Fulton today. My oldest is at church and I am going to take a nap.

Today has been a pretty decent day. I spent the morning with my friend Kim, who cooked me breakfast. :) I really enjoyed that as I am used to cooking for everyone else and rarely ever have someone cook for me. I really enjoyed spending time with her and her dog, Sassy. I love her lab and her lab knows it. I have taken care of her on occasion and she is such a smart dog. If I were to have a dog, I would want one like her.

Though, I kind of have a dog. LM got a hound-mix puppy and named him Brute. Seriously, the dog should be called Scaredy Pants! LOL! He is a cutie. He also minds really well. LM usually keeps him at his sister's house, but he is spending the night tonight.

I cooked tacos for supper and ate way too much! I was seriously wanting them and the amount I ate proved that. :) My friend Tammy and I went grocery shopping so I could get all the ingredients. She is such a trip and so much fun. She had to do some shopping as well, though her family was eating salad tonight. That is probably what I should have fixed as well, since I did make such a pig of myself.

But, I seriously cannot help it. I crave foods so strongly and beef seems to be the primary one. Here lately, all I have wanted is meals with beef in them. Especially, hamburgers. I have never ate so many hamburgers in my life! I just want them all the time. I think I must have some kind of deficiency or something.

Tomorrow, I have an ultrasound :) It is still too early to find out what sex the baby is, but I am still excited about it. LM is going as well. We have to be there bright and early in the morning. I will also get to prove to LM that I am not having triplets!!! *LOL* He has convinced himself that I am. Time to hit the hay, y'all!

I am not a reality tv kind of gal. I find the whole fascination with it weird, but I did get into the show Average Joe. Something about them putting normal men on tv, instead of fashion models, really interested me. I was a bit upset when they decided to throw in three fashion models, but I really thought that personality would win in the end.

Well, I cannot even express my disappointment at tonight's final episode. I was wrong.

Melana picked the fashion model. Jason, the pretty boy that still lives with Mommy and Daddy got the girl. Adam ... the incredibly sweet, smart, funny, honest, and cute "Average Joe" was sent home. Yeah ... she really proved she was looking beyond the looks.

I rented Pirates of the Caribbean tonight only to get it home and the tape be messed up. I tried changing the tracking, cleaning the VCR, and trying it in a second VCR ... all to no avail.

I got so fed up that I took it back, got a refund, and bought the movie! I have been trying to rent it since it came out only to have all copies rented out each and every day. And, we are talking Blockbuster here! But, it is cool. I love Johnny Depp (my husband ... he just has no clue ... but that is okay) and Orlando Bloom (my lover ... and yes, he has no clue either and I am cheating on Johnny ... but whatever ... it is my fantasy ... okay??!!), so all is good. I would have bought the movie anyway.

As for the movie ... it was the bomb and Orlando was too fine for words. I don't know what it is about that man, but I love him in long hair! And, I am not a "long hair" kind of girl. Long hair on men has been a turn off for me for years. Yet, I love it on him. Now, his hair was not as long as it was for Legolas, but still ... too cute! Johnny was hilarious and fine as always, even under that weird getup. That man should have been the father of my children. Seriously!

In honor of Johnny Depp, I took the following quiz:

You are Don Juan From "Don Juan De Marco." Woobaby! You are Don Juan - dark and handsome, and the world's greatest lover. Some people find you to be a bit insane (or is that insanely sexy?). While you may not be playing with all 52 cards, don't let that get you down - you're a true romantic at heart.

Bill Mayer has a blog!!!! I was surfing around David's site and he had commented on it, so I had to take a look. I really like Bill Mayer so I had to blogroll him. You can also check it out here: Bill Mayer's Blog

Also, I would like to congratulate David on the birth of his new baby girl!

I hate the fatigue that comes with being pregnant! Ugh! It so gets on my nerves. I get up and within two hours I am ready to go back to bed. If I don't, then I am tired all day long. If I do, I am tired again a few hours after I get up. It is ridiculous!

I finally got to watch Matrix Reloaded and Bruce Almighty!!!!

Oh my goodness, Bruce Almighty is such a good movie. I loved it! I am a big Jim Carrey fan anyways, but this is his best movie ever. Not only does it entertain, but it also hits home a bit ... at least to me. I, at times, tend to forget what is important and pray for things that aren't necessary. It reminded me of that.

Now, as to Matrix Reloaded: Keanu Reeves. Need I say more? I have always loved him and I think he is a wonderful actor. I know some people are really funky about him, but he really does it for me :) I loved the movie as well and cannot wait to see the next one. I will wait for it to be released on video though. I am not much of a theater person, though I did see the first one that way. It definitely gives it something, but I like being able to hit "pause" when I have to pee! :)

I know a lot of people were disappointed with this movie, but I wasn't. I guess that is because: 1) I am a big Matrix fan. 2) I understand that it is the first half of a movie.

My niece is spending the night tonight, but right now it is just my youngest daughter and me at home. Everyone else went to Fulton. I have kind of enjoyed having most of the day to myself. It has been a lot quieter around here, especially since my baby is a pretty quiet child and easily entertains herself. She is napping on the couch right now and I am waiting for the rest of the family to come home so I can cook supper. Of course, they want something I am a lacking a few ingredients for, so LM is stopping by the store before they come in.

Now I just need to see if Pirates of the Caribbean is in at Blockbuster! Lata!

Well, this is not going to be a long post as I am actually going to go to bed at a decent hour tonight. I am so whooped! I am so whooped that I did not even cook tonight, which is quite unusual for me, but instead bought McDonalds. Yes, McDonalds. And, I cannot stand McDonalds. I did not get much sleep last night and I have felt it all day long. I have not cleaned, nor cooked, nor done anything that required much energy. All I have done is watch TV!

You know I am especially pleased with my Christmas tree this year. I just love it and love to look at it! I took a ton of pictures of it tonight as well. I found my Christmas CDs so I am getting ready to drive everyone crazy :) But, that is okay, they can deal with it and get in the Christmas spirit or they can plug their ears.

I found out something cool today. My sister, Susan, wants us to spend the holidays together! I am so surprised. We have barely talked in the last 14 years. I have always felt that she didn't like me much, especially since her mother and I had so many issues with each other. Maybe things are changing for the better. It is just sad that it took Daddy dying to make that happen.

This will be the first Christmas since his death. I am still not dealing with him being gone well at all. He has been gone since April. You would think I would be somewhat over it by now but I still cannot think about him without crying. I miss him so much.

Bed time for me, kiddies! Sleep well and dream sweet dreams.

I stole this from Donna ... yeah, I know I said I was going to bed but I had to check her blog! *LOL*

Now, there are a few reasons this does not fit me: 1) I am anti-social. 2) I am high-strung and easily stressed. 3) I tend to be pessimistic at times. *LOL*

The day before yesterday, I was composing a post to this blog when I lost my DSL connection. While I worked trying to figure out why I had lost it and why I could not get it back, there was a knock on the door. It was a man asking me if I had lost my phone as well. We had lost our phones around here due to an accident that put down a telephone line. But, thankfully, it is all fixed now and I have my phone back!!! Yay!!!

Everything around here has been nice and peaceful so I am happy about that. I finally got to talk to my sister today, whose phone just got hooked up Monday. I tried Monday, before the accident crushed my phone line, but she was napping.

Last night, LM, was almost killed at work! A live wire snapped and landed in the water he was standing in. If he had not had on rubber boots, he would have been killed. Then, his supervisor, told him to keep on working while another guy held the wire. LM refused because of the live wire. At that point his supervisor and a maintenance man told him that a breaker had shut off the voltage to the wire. LM wouldn't believe it and told his supervisor that he should prove it and grab the wire. The maintenance man took the wire and put it to a conveyor belt ... and it shot sparks all over the place. LM said his supervisor looked at him like he was going to pee on himself or something!

Thank the Lord no one was injured!